Don't read this unless you're shit bored because I just need to get this out of myself because it's wearing on my nerves. I'm not trying to whine or say "ooh, I'm special now because my head's not on right".

So some who have me on facebook already saw this, but I randomly pierced my ear tonight and I was freaking out about it a little. (That's actually not what brought this about, just what made me want to talk about it.) I've always been convinced, with good reason, that I have some kind of an obsessive compulsive disorder even though most who have seen my room would raise an eyebrow. But I haven't gone a day that I can remember without this weird system my brain invented that I can't explain making most of my decisions for me. If I break the system it makes me feel really distressed. I also obsessive compulsively do things to my skin like pull out hairs from my arms and pick at my skin (chicken skin---ever since I was little). It makes me easily distracted from tasks because I go into this trance-like weirdness so that even if I notice I'm doing it it's extremely hard to get myself to stop. The point is, this is why I was freaking out a little bit, not because I pierced my ear, but because I couldn't make myself stop when I started pressing the pin to my ear until I actually did it. I won't lie, I was shaking a lot when I posted that status update.

Okay well I'm going to bed before I hallucinate again (I sometimes see and hear shit after about midnight... but that's another rant for another day)

On another note, last night I had a dream about a zombie invasion! It was so cool...